January 2010
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all we ever do is say goodbye-john mayer
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would you wanna go back to your highschool years? why?
hell no. to be honest, I hated my high school years. Plus, there was too much problems and issues going on in my life during my high school years so I was never able to enjoy it. Would I go back if I had a chance to relive it? not a chance. I’ve moved beyond that and I am currently happy with where I am at right...
a real boyfriend
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heartsandhopes:
Don’t care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now. I don’t care if you are a guy or a woman . Just read this, it will make a difference. If only everyone could see this and understand it. When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough Kiss her and tell her you love her When she’s quiet Ask her whats wrong When she ignores you Give her your...
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WHYY WON’T YOU LIKE MY SINGING ! WHY DO YOU LOOK AT ME AND MY GAY LOVER LIKE WE’RE GAY OR SOMETHING? WHY AM I ASKING YOU LAME QUESTIONS? WHY IS THIS SO FUN? WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS? because it sounds like i’m screaming duh. hahah. hi.
LOL oh boy. how amusing. i love your singing. =] i love you and your gay lover. lol
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John Mayer-Heartbreak Warfare
I think I posted...
“Everything is complicated; if that were not so, life and poetry and everything...”
– Wallace Stevens
Games
So..ever since I moved back into riverside and brought my xbox 360 with me, I’ve been playing video games a lot. At first it was only during my spare time or when I was taking a break. But come to think, it has become a sort of therapy for me whenever I’m stressed or upset about something. Rather than venting to someone who might not be interested, it was easier to just vent it out...
“nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today to make...”
– Maria Robinson
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How come it took you so long to see that she wasn’t as perfect as you thought she was?
well I never thought she was perfect. everyone is flawed in their own way. I was just willing to see past the flaw and get to know her and believe me, she is a good person. Why did it take so long? Everything takes time. Especially with these types of situations, you can’t decide...
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You’re walking down the street when you run into an alien, and he says, “Would you rather play ‘catch’ or scream ‘I love ponies and rainbows’ in a really crowded dorm? There is a correct answer, and if you answer wrong, you will be abducted and killed.”
first off. shutup wilson. i know it’s you. and second, I’d do both. lolol...
Done
So for awhile now, I’ve been blogging about a girl that I’ve liked for a long time. But I’ve been thinking about the whole situation for a long time and about my feelings for her and I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m completely over her. This doesn’t mean I’m not her friend anymore because I still am and she is an amazing person. It just means that I...
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This girl you like, right? Isn’t Valentine’s day coming up? Are you planning to do something for her?
lol! that’s in February. I’ll worry about it when February comes along. But probably not, after all valentine’s day is meant more for couples and she is not my girlfriend or anything.
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“Illusions commend themselves to us because they save us pain and allow us to...”
– sigmund freud
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If you react like this over a girl how are you going to react when actual tragedies do happen? This, this is not a tragedy…all I have to say is when life gives you lemons, throw away those damn lemons! This is daniel by the way.
relationships and actual tragedies have different emotions. If you are defining tragedies as when people that are close to me like family get...
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Did you know your name is Katatakato?!!? ahhahaah !
yes. yes i know. lol
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You write a lot about this girl you like, supposedly love…seriously what’s so great about her?
lol! first off love is a strong word and one I wouldn’t apply at the moment. second, since you know about this girl, I’m assuming you read my blog which begs the question of how you don’t know what I like about her, but I’ll answer anyways. Have you...
Day Ten 01/24/10
It’s day 10. yea I’ve kept count.
I thought I was over you. I thought that things have changed for me. I thought that I would no longer want to be with you. Guess I was wrong. A part of me still likes you. A part of me still wants to be with you. It starting to bug me a lot because it is because of these feelings that we had our “pause” and I don’t want that to...
Hypocrisy
I have been annoyed of people lately. I’m tired of the constant nagging of what a someone doesn’t like about someone else or what someone doesn’t like what someone else is doing. The irony and hypocrisy of this is that everyone does the same thing. People all have a tendency to do things that they say they never will do or that they never act a certain way. It is because we...
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What does it mean to be “over” someone?
when the feelings that you once had for the person becomes nothing more than a memory of a past life that no longer burdens one’s life on a daily basis. The reasoning is a different situation.
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“I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around...”
– John Green (Looking for Alaska)
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Change
I don’t know when the change happened but I’m assuming this weekend. Things feel…different. Things feel more intact. Despite the god awful rain that makes doing things impossible, I feel at peace. It’s quite refreshing actually. I almost forgot how great of a feeling it is. I’m glad things are as great as they are right now, despite the wacky weather.
To Ms. Pants,
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Feels good
Feels good talking to you again. Feels really good. It’s like nothing ever happened and everything is back to normal. How awesome is that? I think it’s pretty awesome.
-Allan Lee
Day 5 01/19/10
It’s day 5. Well technically it doesn’t really matter what day it is since we’re talking now. Not to sure if I should keep this up. *shrug. I’ll do it for now. It’s great talking to you again. Best feeling in the world. But, something seems out of place. You seem more reserved. More careful, like something is holding you back or something is bothering you. Not to...
Day Four 01/18/10
It’s Day 4. There’s not much to say. I’m coming back to riverside today. Coming home didn’t help much. It’s raining again. I hate the rain. Waiting on you to be my friend again. Always waiting…
edit: we’re friends again. We’re talking again like we use to. Feels good.
Call me if you need anything.
-Allan Lee
I hate...
I hate liars. What I hate even more are those why try to sugarcoat their lies in order to make it seem like its legitimate. All cowards. All of them.
*sigh
Waiting on you to just be my friend and end this nonsense.
Is that too much to ask for?
-Allan Lee
Fear
What are you so afraid of? What are you so afraid of losing? Everything was going so well between us, then all of a sudden you vanish. Sure, we had our bumps and obstacles. But that never stopped us, at least not before. I opened up to you. Treated you with respect. Treated you like the beautiful person you are. We worked together. Together we were unstoppable. Yet every time it seems like we are...
Day Four 01/17/10
It’s day 4. Last night was probably the worst sleep I had since entering college. I don’t know how to describe it. It was like sleeping but being awake at the same time. Now I’m sore all over and extremely restless. My house is empty. I don’t know where anyone is. It’s great being home but I feel mostly alone and lost when I’m home.
I don’t know what...
It's 1:30 A.M
It’s 1:30 in the morning and I’m thinking of you. It has become increasingly frustrating and difficult to not call you or text you now. All I have been thinking about is “Are you okay?” “how are you?” “Hows your weekend so far?” “When are we going to hang out again?” “When are we going to talk again?” “I hope you...
Day Three 01/16/10
It’s day three. I have no idea if you have been reading these or not. Guess it doesn’t really matter. I’m heading home today for the 3 day weekend. A nice little break from everything. I still really wish I had you to talk to about everything. Remember the week when I first met you and we were eating at Denny’s? I do. You took a piece of straw cover and tied it in a knot...
A friend
I am your best friend. Oh how convenient. I guess those would satisfy most people. But I am not most people. I am friend? Really? We were never just friends and you know that. Was I not dear and kind to you? Did I not satisfy those criterias of yours. What is it that you wish? You wish me to treat you like the others? A fool who only recognizes what is revealed to them? Fine. I’ll treat you...
Day Two 01/15/10 again
It’s still day 2 and I’m writing my second “letter” to you for the same day. Today has been a lazy day. All my classes were canceled and I could have gone home tonight but I didn’t. Why? no idea. I think I saw you at dinner tonight. Can’t be sure. Then again I can be seeing things.
I still don’t understand what you hope to accomplish with this pause. What...
Day 2-01/15/10
Day 2. I woke up today thinking of you. Is that strange? Probably. Since this is the only way I can communicate with you, I think I’ll be leaving you these “letters” once in awhile. Anyways, today’s a new day. Let’s see what it has in store for us. I think I might be watching Daybreakers with Max today. Yea I’ve been hanging out with Max a lot. I see it as a...
fix you-coldplay
When you try your best but you...
Day One 01/14/10
Today is the actual first day to…our break? What is this anyways? I’ll refer to it as a pause. To say that I’m feeling sad would be an understatement. I don’t understand how you think I’ll survive just waiting and not being able to talk to you but I’ll wait nonetheless. Today’s been nothing but a painful reminder that I’ve lost you, or as you so...
Being Patient
To the girl I like,
You speak in past tense as if you lost me, but you haven’t. I am here, waiting, until you realize how much we need each other. You miss what we use to have? I doubt it, what we have can never be gone. You miss being close with me? Never, i’ll always be there for you. I don’t know about you but I never let go of those I love.
I don’t understand how you...
Waiting
I will wait for you. With everything that’s going on, I know it will take awhile but I don’t care. I will wait as long as I need to for you to realize I care. I will wait as long as I need to for you to realize how much you mean to me. I’m not saying this because I pity you or anything. I say this because you are worth it, you really are. You don’t need to handle it on your...
“Slow Dancing In A Burning Room”...
“They say love is friendship set on fire. If you’re lucky enough to find someone...”
– Being Erica (via r1chellle)
i have found someone. now just wishing it was mutual
Lost
It sucks not being able to talk to you. It sucks not being able to be there for you. Despite everything that happened last night, I don’t want to lose you. You mean the world to me and I care about you and I need you right now.
For once, I do hope you read this.
-Allan Lee
angel-jack johnson I’ve got an angel She...
Angry? Upset? Neither?
Although things have not settled down, I feel the need the blog. No, compelled to blog. As many of you who read my blog may know, I have deep feelings for this girl and despite all the complications that have occurred, my feelings have never wavered to far from its origins. They’ve stayed intact and secure deep inside where no one can touch it or taint. She is beautiful, smart, funny,...
emotion overload
Since winter quarter started, everything has been an emotional mess. I’m at a lost as what to do right now. I thought that winter break would help me move on but it didn’t. Things are back to square one since school started again but this time I’m more lost and confused than I was before. Therefore, until things settle down, this is my last post.
-Allan Lee
Beatles →
Who knows how long I’ve loved you You know I love you still Will I wait a lonely lifetime If you want me to, I will. For if I ever saw you I didn’t catch your name But it never really mattered I will always feel the same. Love you forever and forever Love you with all my heart Love you whenever we’re together Love you when we’re apart. And when at last I find...
““For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those ‘It...”
– John Greenleaf Whittier and Edgar Allan Poe
I need this-chris brown